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I’m in J’s office right now. I couldn’t bear to hear Joya cry so I came here. I had shockwave yesterday and today is the first day that I can’t breastfeed Joya because of the meds I’m taking. I was pumping and dumping the whole day. I thought that was bad enough but tonight, actually hearing my baby cry for milk and not being able to do anything is the worst. I just had to leave the room and fully trust that J can handle him. My husband is a good dad but I don’t think he realizes what he is in for. Last night Joya woke up four times to ask for milk. And he never had a bottle for a night milk.

I am dreading tonight. I can imagine how stressful it can be for Joya and J and me.

Sana matapos na ito!